I begin writing this about 24 hours since I published my first post Hello World and people actually saw it. Now it wasn’t some one hit wonder where I got thousands of readers over night, nor did I expect that to occur. I got a handful of views, some likes, few followers and a single comment. And honestly I’m quite happy about that! Sure to most people that’s not a lot but for me it’s a start and I plan to hopefully keep growing.
Of course, this posts purpose wasn’t just to talk about my achievements. I am writing this because I wanna talk about my current life. I didn’t expect to be going into this so soon but it seems you can never plan or predict how things happen. What I want to talk about is progress, not the progress I have achieved but the progress of my peers.
Over the last few years I feel like I’ve been stuck in the same place while everyone around me are achieving highly in whatever they seem to pursue, whether it is something academical or something sporty they achieve it and continue to climb higher. And while I am happy for my friends achieving greater things it also sucks because I just seem to be looking at them from a distance. Over the last few months I have watched my friends get into universities like Oxford and Warwick, get their music played over 200 thousand times on sound cloud, join a battle rap league. It is a crappy feeling but I have to get over it however hard it may seem at the time.
It’s been a few days since i started writing this post and my brain just froze after the last paragraph and my view of this topic has changed. Yes, my friends have been progressing and moving on in life and yes I was stuck in a bad place where I didn’t feel like I was going forward with anything. However, I am only 18, my entire life is still ahead of me and I have plenty of opportunity and time to keep growing and progressing forward. And maybe I will overtake my friends and I will be the one that my peers look up to and not the other way around. But right now, this is nothing but a pipe dream. I have to work hard to be able to progress and it wont be easy by any means. A lot of work and effort will be have to be put into my life in general if I want to achieve something and it took me and embarrassingly long time to realise this. I suppose what I wanna say to my self is that this is not the end of me but the beginning of a new chapter in my life.